She has always managed to make an impact on my heart, uneasy feeling of selfishness accompanied by a sense of guilt and imbarassement of being helpless in helping her. With her innocent beautiful smile, she approaches me at the traffic light and knocks on my car window trying to sell me a red rose in an attempt to catch my sympathy and gave her money. At other times, she approaches me in Ziqaq Al Madaq while having a good time smoking my shisha and drop the red rose on my lap so that to force me to give her money.
I never budge, always with the same attitude, I raise my hand for her to go, or say thanks, give her back the rose, and turn my head so that she leaves!
This little girl is one of many beggars that Great Amman Municipality is targeting in its new campaign to make Amman a beggar free city. According to the news, they are going to rehabilate some beggars and provide them with a decent jobs, others would end up in jail and pay taxes for their beggings. Obviously, and according to the GAM, some beggars are not poor. They beg to get more money and save them in their bank account. I have no idea how much credibility is there behind such stories as I never imagine myself begging for the sake of making more money for an ego and self respect issue, and can’t imagine others begging for money and endure such humilation unless they are in a great need for it.
While it does come as a relief for me not having to go through the guilt feelings of not helping anyone asking for money in the streets, especially with this news of wealthy beggars, and while I understand the benefit of such move by the GAM for the benefit of the city especially in the summer touristic season, I do still feel a kind of selfishness for being relieved for not having to endure such scenese again.
From another perspective, and with the impact of Devil’s Mind on me through discussion freedom and rights of people in other issues, I found myself thinking of the right on individual to ask for many.
Each one of us have a right to beg. I want to have this option if life failed me where I ended parallized in the streets with no way to have food except by begging.
It does make a difference when you put yourself in others shoes, but you always come back to yourself, and say that a bit of selfishness doesn’t hurt, and wish that life never fails you in the future.