Infinity does scare me.
It is a thing that I can’t really comprehend when I apply it on anything in this world. It even gets scarier when applied to time, the infinite beginning and end of time. Or even when applied to space, the infinite amount of space you find if you are going larger or even going smaller.
For instance, if our universe is finite where telescopes can reach its boundaries, what would lie behind those boundaries? Nothing? If you move in the nothing, where would you reach?
What if you come to a perspective where the whole universe is just a tiny atom? and you conintued going up in scale where the universe(atom) is connected with other universes(atoms) to form a matter in a bigger universe, and go up so that the new universe is just an atom in a bigger one?! and continue, continue…
Isn’t there a stop to that?
What if you go the other way around, with microscopes now looking into sub-atomic particles. What if that microscope can magnify those particles to a scale of our universe and look inside the particle universe, and continue this process on and on?
What if you go back in time to the big bang? what if the big bang is the final point of a previous stage? what if you continued going on with time in that direction? and continued and continued..
What if you go forward in time, till the end of time? would there be an end? if yes, what’s next? Next! Next! Next!
I feel trapped in an infinite universe. It does scare me not being able to understand this issue. It almost like there is a bug in my brain where a loop keeps on going on when I try to figure out this logical problem. That tiny reaction in my brain triggers some fear emotions that encapsulate the whole issue.
Is it an intentional bug that has been inflicted by a creator?
Or is it a wrong of perception of how the world goes?