ربما يبدو كلامي للبعض بعيدا عن المنطق و الواقع, فكيف لنا ان نحلم بمستقبل افضل و نحن نرى الغضب و الموت و الكراهية تحيطنا؟ حاولت تجنب الموت الحاضر في غزة. شعرت بانني مكبل و ان مشاعري قد تزيد غضب البعض. لم ادرى كيف ارفع صوتي للسلام في وقت اطرشت به اصوات اعداء السلام اذان الجميع. اخترت الصمت, حاولت التنحي جانبا و يدي الى قلبى, خائفا على مستقبل بلدي و مجتمعي و عائلتي و اصحابي و احبائي
في الحقيقة, و قد ابدو انانيا للبعض هنا, فقد طورت نفسي استراتيجية دفاع ذاتية خلال السنين. تغمض عيني تلقاء نفسها لمنظر الدماء, لم تعد اذني تسمع الصراخ و الالام. اكره الموت و الدمار, اكره الصرخ و الضجيج. فصلت نفسي عن الخطاب الديني و الاثني. تمسكت في انسانية الانسان. اراهن على الحياة, اقدس الحب, و اومن ان انسانيتنا تحمل في طياتها ما يجعلنا نتشابه بمقدار اكبر بكثير ما تفرق بيننا الاعراق و الاديان
يخيفني الخطاب الديني, اهاب جملة “امة الاسلام”, اهاب تقسيم الناس حسب دينهم. و اتساءل اين “امة الانسانية؟”. لماذا لانفتح ذراعينا اكثر لاحتضان الجميع؟ لماذا لانجعل الرابط الانساني اساسا لحكمنا على الاخر. اهو ضيق افق ام مصالح قادة يستمدون قوتهم من التقسيم؟
بقدر ما يحزنني الموت الحاصل في غزة, بقدر ما تحززني ثقافة الموت حولي. اتفاجاء من الناس حولي, يريدون القتال و الموت, يتمنون الشهادة. لايهم فقدان اب او اخ, لايهم مقتل طفل او امرأة فقد انتقلو الى نعيم الجنة. اخاف الجنة التي جعلت حياتنا رخيصة. اخاف الجنة التي تمحي جمالية الحياة. اخاف الجنة التي تطفىء نور الحياة
لكن في نفس الوقت, ارى بصيص امل, اشعر بالفخر عندما ارى الاردنيين يهبون للمساعدة. اشعر بالشكر للاشخاص خلف حبر الذين استطاعوا بصوتهم لجم مشاعر الغضب و تحويل طاقات الشعب الى شيء ايجابي يفيد الناس في غزة بدل ان يضر شعبنا هنا. ارى نضجا شعبويا يقوده شباب هذا الوطن. اشعر في الامل و ارى بصيص نور خلف سحب الظلام
في بداية عام جديد, اتساءل متى سينضج وعينا الشعبي لتقديس الحياة؟ متى نستطيع تغيير رسالتنا الى العالم؟ متى نستطيع ان نصرخ و نقول اننا نستحق الحياة لاننا نحبها. نستحق الحياة لاننا نريد ان نحياها. نريدها كاملة دون انتقاص. نريد الفرح و البهجة و الجنون
Fadi Zaghmout فادي زغموت 
Excellent Observer!I loved what you said…
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There are no words to describe the frustration I feel with the endless cycle the we have been for more than 60 years. When will we pull ourselves out of it and look at each other not as enemies, but as equal human beings?Nonetheless, you continue to project a voice of humanity that I long for. Very well put. May you have a great new year!
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حاولت التنحي جانبا كاذب .. جولة سريعه على المدونات تعكس اسلوبك الواطي .. خوفك من الامه الاسلاميه يجعلك تنفث غبائك وحقدك في كل مكان لم اعرف في تاريخ التدوين انسان في قبحك ونذالتك .. بحب اطمنك انو احنا مسلمين عارفيين ايش بدنا ولوين رايحين .. اما انت فمتمسك بحياة الذل الي انت عايشها حكيتلك اياها في الماضي وبحكيلك اياها الان ديننا هو حياتنا وليس بالنسبه لنا مجموعة شعائر نؤديها يوم الاحد في المسجد ونقفل الباب عليها عندما نخرج نصيحتي الك خليك في غبائك والاشياء اللي بتهتم فيها مثل الاشواذ جنسيا وغشاؤ البكاره ومسح الجوخ للسفير وغيره
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Wise thoughts and wise words, I can’t agree more!
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It is obvious that there is somebody who totally disagree with you today MR Observer! 🙂 but obviously this one lakes the knowledge, the intelligence and even the basic common sense! honestly I searched to at least on simple idea in his post.. something to grape and defend.. but there was non! only a bunch of insults (FROM SOMEONE WHO DEFENDS RELIGION) … only one question.. is Islam base on insults! … i only want to make the things clear.. 1- Islam is a great religion.. it is bigger than all this nonsense, and has a great wisdom so at least when defending Islam try to understand it.2- Christianity is not by any means ritual done on Sunday morning! .. they pray on Wednesday too :p no really.. it is by all means the farest religion from ritual! it is most spiritual religion in this whole word.. and I feel stupid to defend it because it really does not need my defense.3- gays.. virginity.. religion.. it is all self believes and ideas.. IF YOU DON’T LIKE OTHERS POINT OF VIEW F*** OF.. BUT DO NOT BY ALL MEAN TRY TO INFORCE YOUR STUPID SELF CENTER PEACE OF SHIT ON OTHERS.. YOU EITHER ACCEPT IT.. BE NUTRAL.. OR REFUSE IT IN A WELL MANNER WAY.. ELSE.. F*** OF YOU ARE NOT WELCOME ..
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Thank you for this great post The Observer. You did speak my mind.
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Anon1, thank you.Zait o za3tar, Thank you. I m too frustrated with the endless cycle of death as well. Happy new year for you and your family 🙂Anon2, I didn’t say that I fear the muslim nation. I said that I fear the religious speech that play on religious emotions to enduce hatred and violence. Nizars, thank you, I appreciate your support.Razan, thank you 🙂
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thanks for the article .. I also hate this death culture that is becoming stronger than us, its complicated. I am a Palestinian and I consider myself patriotic even though I don’t belong to a party.. I hate that dying is becoming so “normal” to us.. I am a muslim and I know that in my religion human life comes before any religious duty, and thats why we were given the permission to eat if fasting was leading to a sickness or death, based on this case and many others I conclude that life comes first ..During the second intifada and especially in 2002, Israelis re-invaded our cities, ppl were killed in masses, and without getting into all the misery we went and we are going through.. it was then that I started noticing that death is not anymore just a sad incident, its overwhelmingly everywhere, you look on the walls you see photos of “shaheeds”, destruction everywhere, nothin is in its place, not only people were killed, but a big part of their memories,lives and the little happiness they may have lived.and the cycle continued everyday someone is killed or is bombed or sometimes even decides to commit a “suicide or martyrdom” operation .. I know many are with and many are against those operations, thats not my point .. my point is that when those first started they were viewed like such an exceptional thing, very brave or in other opinions very crazy .. with time the glamor of such operations differed it became more normalized, just like the idea of 10 or 20 0r 600 now killed in Gaza .. we became numbers, and we are part of that !Many times I asked myself what’s the difference between those killed or assassinated and those deciding to commit such operations, even though every single military wing in this country will disagree with me and say no those are heroes and they chose to do somethin for their country and its an act of sacrifice, I wonder how many happy people with a normal life, a normal country, stable political and economic situation would choose to do that? and my answer is even when those chose to die and take other lives, to what extent did they actually have options? I don’t want to defend those operations thats not my intention .. I just want to draw questions on why is death or death culture is sooo there .. when people see that their blood is so cheap and no one gives a damn about their sufferance not international community .. not governments.. isnt that also normalizing death ? what scares me the most in all that, is the frustration of my people, I don’t want to imagine what will those children turn out to become in few years?thanks observer for your article u triggered some ideas , dont consider my comment an argument with or against ur piece, I just fear where will this lead us ?!
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Mira, thank you. It is sad what is happening to the Palestinian. You are right, violence triggers violence. Some people might find no hope in life and thus rush to end it for a hope of a better existance. I am all for peace. We should shout even stronger now than before to save ourselves from the damage they are causing us. Hang in there guys.
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إلى المعلق المجهول الأول. إذا كان دينك هو حياتك كما تدعي فإن أول ما يطلبه منك أن تكون مهذبا وصاحب أخلاق عالية ولكن طريقة تعبيرك تظهر أنك شخص بحاجة إلى الكثير والكثير من التهذيب وهذا يعني أنك بعيد تماما عن أخلاق الدين الإسلامي التي تدعيها.
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Thanks for sharing thanks for google translate! 🙂may light always shine even in the darkest time!
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Yeslam temmak!
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